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"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that."
— Martin Luther King Jr.

I told Jean last Saturday that i still feel hatred and anger.
Somehow, i cant do anything but learn to stay cool, calm and busy.
I got his message on Sunday night.
He say he is not in a relationship.
But then the fact is he is in love.
It still hurts after all and makes no difference.

Seeing someone whom you once care and treasure so much even though you feel hurt.
Reading the blog he wrote.
I realise, he doesnt need my help anymore.
Am I stupid to even care in silence?
It's not the love i was looking, i emphasis.
Just even when i know he's in love.
I still want to know how he has been doing?

Holding on to hatred and anger didnt make me any better.
Why make yourself miserable where he enjoying his life?
If letting it go easily can make it better, i would have done it 1 year ago.
Cause to me i feel, its a untold story not known by many.
Its only me and him who knew what really went wrong.
But then it's still complicated.
Maybe something were better off hiding then releasing the truth.

I havent FALL.
I am still STRONG.
It's the 10th day after that issue.
Cause I dont want to lose to myself for this that hurt and worthless.
what haven't kill me makes me stronger.

I may cried, grief and think.
But I know one day, God will place a better person beside me.
And I need to pray even more.
This 2010 wont be the same.
I will be on track and not get distracted.

Constantly remind myself, I should be forgetting him because he wont be in my life story anymore.
And got to thank him.
Cause he make me grew stronger throughout this whole situation.


I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, this is my life.
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D10: What haven't kill me makes me stronger Wednesday, January 20, 2010 "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." — Martin Luther King Jr. I told Jean last Saturday that i still feel hatred and anger. Somehow, i cant do anything but learn to stay cool, calm and busy. I got his message on Sunday night. He say he is not in a relationship. But then the fact is he is in love. It still hurts after all and makes no difference. Seeing someone whom you once care and treasure so much even though you feel hurt. Reading the blog he wrote. I realise, he doesnt need my help anymore. Am I stupid to even care in silence? It's not the love i was looking, i emphasis. Just even when i know he's in love. I still want to know how he has been doing? Holding on to hatred and anger didnt make me any better. Why make yourself miserable where he enjoying his life? If letting it go easily can make it better, i would have done it 1 year ago. Cause to me i feel, its a untold story not known by many. Its only me and him who knew what really went wrong. But then it's still complicated. Maybe something were better off hiding then releasing the truth. I havent FALL. I am still STRONG. It's the 10th day after that issue. Cause I dont want to lose to myself for this that hurt and worthless. what haven't kill me makes me stronger. I may cried, grief and think. But I know one day, God will place a better person beside me. And I need to pray even more. This 2010 wont be the same. I will be on track and not get distracted. Constantly remind myself, I should be forgetting him because he wont be in my life story anymore. And got to thank him. Cause he make me grew stronger throughout this whole situation.