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Just when i was at peak of the hour of happiness, i fall hard.
Ok. I might sound serious but its the plan i have and someone actually got it before me......T_T
S-L-O-W
I actually wanted to get myself ready in manufacture items, so now gather information.
And I was researching, happen to saw this dress which is wonderfully beautiful.
So i point.. "You shall be my first item manufacture! =)"
but but....
someone actually got it before me...just few minutes ago!
oh boy oh boy.....
I felt so disheartened now. =(

Anyway.....

About the small little joy of happiness i have earlier, its regarding him.
We sort of having a small conversation regarding him coming back to where he used to be.
And i did say that I cant help myself to watch him falling deeper.
I didnt know the words i say will impact him
but I know alittle part of it has makes him think of coming back.
I know, those words were not from me.
Seriously, I didnt know I have that much of wisdom. I mean talking sense to him.
Making him think of coming back.
But what holds him back is the ego he has inside.
You know man...egoism they have.
He knows he is falling.
But he just let it go, make himself fall deeper and told me its hard to come back to Church.
yes, he might have done something bad to me.
but nonetheless, i didnt want someone who used to be closed with me falls apart in life.
I am glad that I am much better then where he is right now.
And I do know myself that what I do is not for him to come back to me.
But as a friend to encourage him not to fall back.
I know how it feels, I am in his shoe before so i know that I need to pull him back.

Am i right...God?