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I came back with a broken heart, soul and mind.
I dont know who i have become with the action i have done.
It's ugly.
Why did I change to this?
The things that I care for so so much,
it ends in the most ugliest way of what i have done.
Why?
The trust that i have it in you.
You lie. You break.
You makes me gone nasty and ugly.
Why the sudden change that makes you change this way?
I begin to understand.
You fucking dont care about what i am going through with all the emotions.
You fucking dont care what i have done for you.
Do you appreciate?
Do you?

The lies will come true one day.
And the day when the truth came, it hurt one so much.
So much...So badly.
I cant handle this situation. I can't.
Its too much for me to react.
Its better this way if we dont contact.
At least, its better for me to stay away.
At least, i wont hurt myself again.
At least, a distance away would be better.
At least, i wont cried.

I dont want to be like you.
Running away.
Running away breathlessly.
You seem to enjoy life party around.
But you yourself inside, you know you are not enjoying.
You know but you choose to fucking run away.
I pity you.
We cant be friends anymore.
After what I have done.
My stupidity, my naive.
You just makes use of me.
Thats all what I can think of you right now.

'Sorry' this word,
you can say it out easily after all the things you have done.
But you never know that,
this 'sorry' can never compensate of what you have done.
Or neither compensate of what i have done.

This friendship is broken.
Wounded heart.
Scars.
Hurt.
Pain.
Anger.
Trust is gone.
Nostalgia is painful.
You are away in my life for long.


God, got to help me this time.