I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, this is my life.CANT YOU JUST STOP FOR A MOMENT!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I bloody have enough of all the nagging of my mum! Isolate in the world of her own. Disown every relatives we use to have. WHAT THE HELL! Cant you just let it go for the sake? Why do you have to keep the things worst and find some bloody trouble for yourself and make everyone trouble for things and hear you shouting all the things that they have say and done. And keep on bringing things up time and again! I have been hearing what she say to my dad for the past few days and have been quarrel and shouting for the past few days. I HAVE SHIT ENOUGH ALREADY!Cant you just stop for the sake of letting my ears rest? Small things you make it so big for what? Let bygones be bygones.. but instead you bring it up time and again! I feel so shit whenever she shout and nag like hell... she is just finding some trouble for her own when she could have much more peaceful life. If my younger brother were to be here, he should have already start shouting to them. theHUURRHh!! I almost wanted to shout at her to stop all the shouting and nagging. I just feel so much to be out right now...
To be serious, my emotion are still so stucked up! I am feeling lost and lonely at times which i was hoping someone strike a conversation with me. I wish for alot of things. Which i know, its up to me to decide if I really wanted to do all that. But.. words say are easier then done. I told myself not to hope anything or look forward for something. But as times goes by, i feel that i was hoping and looking forward even much more. I just feel so much complicated in life right now. Which i do not know..how to get rid of. Its only I myself have the control to decide. I do know... my mind is clear but emotion are blur..complicated. Which till now.. I still couldnt control my emotion. I struggle to sleep, i struggle to do things well. I know....its stupid. I am trying hard not to think about it anymore. But sometimes, i feel so out of control.
Trip to Thailand delay for one week. Air tickets goes up like crazy... $234 just for the ticket. Hoping my brother can applied leave asap. So i could book the date 25-28 which is $152. And i told my mum about the trip.
O-B-J-E-C-T is the first thing she does.
I feel so much better after ranting out.....phew~
To be serious, my emotion are still so stucked up! I am feeling lost and lonely at times which i was hoping someone strike a conversation with me. I wish for alot of things. Which i know, its up to me to decide if I really wanted to do all that. But.. words say are easier then done. I told myself not to hope anything or look forward for something. But as times goes by, i feel that i was hoping and looking forward even much more. I just feel so much complicated in life right now. Which i do not know..how to get rid of. Its only I myself have the control to decide. I do know... my mind is clear but emotion are blur..complicated. Which till now.. I still couldnt control my emotion. I struggle to sleep, i struggle to do things well. I know....its stupid. I am trying hard not to think about it anymore. But sometimes, i feel so out of control.
Trip to Thailand delay for one week. Air tickets goes up like crazy... $234 just for the ticket. Hoping my brother can applied leave asap. So i could book the date 25-28 which is $152. And i told my mum about the trip.
O-B-J-E-C-T is the first thing she does.
I feel so much better after ranting out.....phew~