I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, this is my life.Maybe its the choice?
Thursday, February 12, 2009
yes yes yes! Its part of life i know. Its my frustration got the hell out of me. Maybe its the better choice for both of us? 4 years, too long or too short? Sometimes, too much misunderstanding going on under the carpet. Which in a result, pile up like a mountain of misunderstanding. He's going army, too much things going on lately and my stubbornness. Relationship that didnt contact each other for 2 weeks. Really.. not a healthy relationship.
I dont bear to let go. Yes, it may be used to have him in my life. I do feel loneliness sometimes without him. But partly, the feeling is still there. But sometimes, things dont go smooth in your hands. Now, we became friends. Close friend? Maybe..maybe..we will get back. Maybe we wont. It depends.
It does hurt. I have feelings and I am human. I do cried. But when i just get back from his house, some words seem to make my heart feel much better. Not as worse as the 1st night. It did calm myself down much more. Think more. Maybe..get myself more positive then negative.
SP: Thank you for your comfort. Sorry but i cant control my feelings and cry in front of you.
I need to grow up. More talkative, more mature, more positive, more friends. The '4' mores! Less negative, less quiet, less stubbornness, less self centred + less fats. The '5' lesses? Haha...
Sorry girls, i know you guys scared of reminding my unhappiness thats why you dont dare to ask. Sorry if i really cry in front of you guys if we meetup. But hang in there for me ok? I will be back again! :)
I think i scared my mum too much! Have been crying this few days. I dont have my own room. So no privacy. And i know she did see me in red eyes. But she did not ask. My brother too...hearing all my nuclears coming out of my nose..(eeww) But he didnt ask either. Maybe...thats part of my freedom?? Ha..
I have never write about my problems on blog for long time ever since someone stop me. Which.. I feel i dont have the freedom to write. This...FEELS SO GOOD! At least... I dont bottle things up for now. Maybe a way, i can throw all my feelings in.
I AM HUNGRY! Have not eaten anything since yesterday..... got to shed my weight down.
This show, 幸福的抉择. NICE!