I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, this is my life.Sunday, January 21, 2007
I need a Miracle Maker ..
Previously was talking about the phone calling to patient that really make me hate to go work sometimes. I do..and really unhappy about it. Today Pastor Kong was talking about Arts Culture.. and Bruce emphasis me of being a admin staff while I am passionate to be in design.. yeah.. it struck me too! i just afraid to step out to face the design world! I not as good as professional.. I just using what I have learn by myself to design different things. I have alot of things that I didn't even know... Maybe its time for me to change the job.
Secondly, my little brother's health getting to be bad..the tumor of the neck started to grow again! It grow bigger each time I see..I getting worry about it! I know he's sad too..even he is unable to describe how he feel. He knows..I still remember the way he look at the mirror...showing a sad face to me! I just feel so helpless but to pray for him again. He has lose 4kg since then.
Thirdly, is applying for school. I hope I can get in school this year! I don't wanna waste my time again and agin!
Lastly, is..I wish I could tell him how I feel! Why am I so angry today! What I wanted didn't come to me. If I say he might get pressure..If I say we will get quarrel again..If I say.. he will say things that me me cry or dissappointed.. If i say He will angry and say I remind him again! I WANT TO SAY BUT DO YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY , RATHER THEN GIVING ME A COLD SHOULDER?? NOT ANSWERING MY PHONE..end up I still don't get what I really wanted!